This is my coming out video, because I'm done with feeling like I need to hide who I am. I shouldn't be ashamed of being me, so this is my first step in taking back my self confidence and living my life as I should have been this whole time. I apologize for the awkwardness in my voice, I'm not good at talking about these things, but I have to say this.

To further explain some things..

I've always had a sense of something being not right with my gender expression since I was a kid. I was always drawn to the more "girly" stuff, examples being when I played dress up with my siblings I always wanted (but never got) to wear the dresses, in teen years I was never comfortable being called a guy or a man, etc, but I just chalked it all up to simply being a more feminine male because that's what I was taught to believe, that being a girl was just not at all an option. It was thanks to the help of some people I met online that I was able to finally understand who I am, about two years ago, but I was still so scared of rejection I kept it a secret. Up until the release of this video, only my mom, siblings, and a handful of close friends know about me, and of those people, even fewer are actually supportive. I'm working hard to put myself in a better place so I can live the life I'm supposed to be living, but it's a long journey.

I had stopped making music for a while because I was so scared of my voice, I saw it as a sort of "no matter what you do, your voice will betray you" sort of thing, and it felt like I was being trapped into not releasing anything because I just couldn't bear to be reminded of my current state. It was thanks to a small group of people that I am able to overcome that, and also learn how to separate my music and singing voice from me, as a normal human. I'm so thankful to them, and I would like to name them specifically.

Namii, Vylet, Izzy, and Rayne.

You all have helped me feel so much more accepting and comfortable with myself, instead of living in constant confusion, worry, denial, and even anger. It's thanks to you that I'm now able to express myself again without the self loathing I experienced before. Thank you so much for all you do for me.

I wanted to address this topic because I've seen some places (HMH and EQD) using my preferred pronouns (which makes me so happy), and I figured now's as a good a time as any to finally make it all known. I haven't exactly been "hiding" it, since my twitter profile, which is linked to my youtube channel, has my pronouns in them, but still not many people know so I wanted to make a public statement here on youtube, for you all to see.

I've found so much love and support in this community, it blows my mind that just 6 years ago I was introduced to the fandom, and now here I am, making music for a large audience of people and coming out as a girl. It's so crazy, the journey I've been on to get to where I am now, and I can't wait to see where I go from here.

Lastly, thank you to everyone on this channel, for supporting me and what I do here, and I hope you will continue to support me in my endeavors as I bring the silly ideas in my head to you. This channel is my safe place, and the fact that, after all that's happened, it's still here and you're all still here, it's incredible.

Stay strong everyone, keep being amazing.

R/F
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Music is Story Within, by KLRX
https://klrx.bandcamp.com/album/stories-within